because i am a lawyer..thats why i wrote this.

Hai..
actually..i try to avoid habis habisan to talk about yeah...when it comes to my career..career lah sgt..
first..because i rase tak de perkara yang havoc havoc or big-big to story about..second, i tak nak dikatakan macam nak show off ..i hate to hear the word"hek eleh" which i used to heard before for so many many time..thats why..if you guys perasan..i memang sangat rarely talk about my kerjaya or anything related with the "mencari -harta-dunia" punyer kerjaya.

enough.but then, i think tak salah if i share with u guys..just assume that am try to sharing something beneficial with u guys not thinking that am try to showing off the part of me.betul ke x ayat tak tau lah tu hahaha.(as u guys know that..since zaman i sekolah..university time, chambering time..even lawyer-ing time..am not so good like american, europian, or even malayasian-perasan-englishman punyer english.hahaha..

3 weeks before..i represent my client in one criminal case..it is a statutory rape case ..involved juvana lah..so after the case is done..tetiba mase nak keluar dari court..someone yg i ingat ingat lupa tegur..badiah??badiah ke ni?? and i say..ye ye..saya..again she asked..mung ke ni badiah..and i answered again..ye..saya badiah..
and she asked me..ingat tak aku??aku..satu sekolah Khairiah sama dengan mung..and i answered ..ingat ingat..(actually memang i tak ingat tapi tak nak buat dia terasa)...
and she said..Ya Allah..dok sangke mung jadi lawyer doh..aku dok sangke sikit pon..
and i asked..bakpe pulok dok sangke??(laughed)
and she said..ye lah..mung kan gane dulu..bukan mung banyak masalah ke?sokmo kena ngn cikgu..
and i replied..memang lah aku banyok masaloh..masolah yg aku buat sikit je..tapi sebab aku ni orang xdok duit..pahtu banyok lah dok leh join aktiviti , koho napok aku ni pelajar bermasaloh..

and after tu kami berbual panjang bla bla..at the end..she still dont believed that am a lawyer now..

guys..could u see that?how people under-estimated me..before..i mean..am like a useless one..bukan pelajar harapan ..nobody in short...masa tu..perkara yg paling saya tak bleh terima when someday tu...ade satu jamuan perpisahan..i lupa dah kat mana but kena bayar dalam 20 ringgit i think..so i tak join..i pergi jumpa cikgu and i bagitau..i tak nak join sebab kalu i join..i kena mintak duit lain dengan my father (masa tu duduk hostel and balik 2 weeks once)..and i bagitau nanti kesian my father nk datang hostel kena hantar duit..20 ringgit tu gaji sehari my dad bekerja and i tak sanggup untuk pergi berjimba jimba sedangkan my father nk dapat duit tu bukan senang aite??
but u know what?that teacher bukannya nk simpati or tolenrasi dengan i..but dia siap cakap am a liar..am seorang pelajar yg bermasalah and i suka cari alasan..
u guys nampak tak??kalu nama manusia..sapa sapa je..suka sangat buat presumption sendiri without walking in our shoes kn..

and start from that..i jadi seorang yang agak rebellious..kiranya i memang susah nk tumpukan perhatian becoz of the sakit hati yg melanda and that attitude terbawa bawa until i ke university..
dekat university..u see kn..terlalu banyak persaingan and as budak kampung..taking law degree..with less of penguasaan english..u akan rase automatically rendah diri..and because of that..u tak akan berani nak appear sangat in front of people..and u macam tak akan berani sangat to give your point of views because u akan rase..yang u ni worse sangat2 compared to any others...

 start from small until i masuk university..i tak suka mengampu cikgu or lecturer..and memang tak akan pergi dekat bilik lecturer just untuk mengampu so that dia akan suka i and i akan dapat advantage from that..memang nampak sombong tapi i memang bukan jenis suka mengampu..so..
selalu lah i jadik orang yg rugi u know..and even what story about me yang keluar even it is not true..i memang tak akan betulkan balik or clean my name..for me..biarlah..one day..i akan hidup bukan dngn diorang..i banyak benda nk fikir(masa tu my father sakit..adik i belajar kt UM and i kena share duit dengan dia sometimes..and adik2 i sekolah lagi so on and so forth)..i dont need to go around and say good things about me..u know what..bila exam datang u tak tau apa soalan keluar..your carry marks is low..u dont have a good reputation..and u know..this isn't easy and has never been..am drained..fucked and powerless at that times..
but then..i moved on and succeed..now am a lawyer ...u know..sungguh banyak halangan seriously..people will never know..but proudly say that..i knew one day even how hard it is..i wanna be a lawyer..today am a lawyer..i prove to the world that..even am not that genius..am not the top scorer in school or university..but the "lawyer" word that i used to put in my biodata as my ambition since i was 7years old..become reality now..alhamdulilah

memang ramai orang tak sangka..tapi i memang dh sangka...-yang tak bermakna i ni pasif masa belajar i tak boleh jadik orang yg berguna..kn?
theoretically speaking..i macam mustahil mampu appear in front of real judges as masa belajar..nak present depan lecturer pon sangat2 takut(i realized sekarang takut-takut tu bukan sebab i tak mampu..tapi sebab i takut akan kena judging and condem  kaw2 as i dont know how to defend myself when something is not going to be the way it should be) tapi practically.bila u dh kerja..jadik lawyer..bercampur dengan semua orang...alhamdulilah..biasa je..boleh je..

so conclusion nya..masa belajar ni..ramai yg over-cerita..konon read law tu macam paling bagus atas dunia..paling professional and paling havoc padahal once it comes to practice..biasa je..
u know your case well..insyallah..u can do well..things like that..
how many score that u got before..pointless at all..
i sendiri tak percaya yg i bleh jugak buat criminal cases as my criminal paper dulu pernah dapat D..masa orang lain sume dapat A or B..i got D..SO idiot sangat u rase at that time..

but then..at any level pon u berada..tak kan pernah dapat memuaskan hati orang..orang akan sentiasa bercakap buruk tentang u and sangat sedikit ingat kebaikan u..thats normal so i tak rase kecil hati pon..


my bff mase read law dulu..thanks guys..u helped me lot.

zaman belajar ..always perasan-ing feeling ade dalam diri.thats y amik gmbar macam ko dh jadik lawyer betul ..thats really not a good attitude actually..



this is sweet memory ever..the day dimana i diterima masuk secara sahnya sebagai peguambela&peguamcara Mahkamah Tinggi Malaya..alhamdulilah..

so..my point here is..never give up..tak pe kalu orang nampak u memang give up, sampah sarap..tapi diri sendiri perlu kuat..memang tak ramai orang yg datang dengan segala kesenangan or sangat2 clean dalam menjalani hidup dia..kebanyakkannya ade bad story but its okay la..manusia berubah..Allah sayang pada orang yg suka berubah ke arah kebaikan kn?

and after u berjaya or u got something..u akan lihat..orang2 yang pernah benci, kutuk ,  dengki dekat u akan datang balik untuk mintak tolong dengan u..bukan sebab diorang dh berubah(Walaupun memang ade yg berubah) tapi diorang datang dekat u hanya kerana u ade apa yg diorang nak..sometimes lah..and it happened to me too..

dimana pon level kite sekarang..dari sehina hina manusia..hingga seagung agung manusia..
tiada siapa lebih hebat dari kite.and kite juga tidak lebih hebat dari siap siapa..
yg paling hebat..hanya TUHAN KITA..

Thanks for reading this

jangan mudah jadik perasan dalam cinta

Assalamualaikum..

terlalu lama yang amat lama giler tidak menulis.btw..once u get older and older..u realized that your idea is totally "out of stock"..maybe proses kenyanyukkan(whateva) sedang berlaku to me..thats why sangat rarely update this lovely blog.

i dont know where should i start..it just......forget it.
can i say something?

okey.begini.
adik adik tersayang..or even kakak kakak tersayang..percayalah..setiap apa yang lelaki cakap tak semestinya dia maksudkan..
it just like....

just because im texting u...doesnt mean that i like u..
just because i ask u out..doesnt mean that because you are hot.
just because i sent you "love" sign in fb or mms..doesnt mean that i love you..
just because i say that you are nice..doesnt mean that my girlfriend is worse than you..
just because i say that you are different from other girls..doesnt mean that you are really different from the girl that i used to know.
just because i say that i miss you..doenst mean that i really did..it is just "pemanis ayat" to start a conversation with you..




sometimes..the word love..is not special anymore because you can simply say it to someone..

ianya..yup melukakan tapi memang kenyataan..ianya like urmm..kejam but thats the reality..
sorry to say..men is always like that..it just a normal thingy...thinking back..how many other girls that he keep copying and pasting too?
but we as women..please..dont be that perasan.seriously..dont be that kind of "whateve type of girl"..

berapa ramai antara kite..yang frust menonggeng sebab sikap terlalu perasan and beremosi..orang baru ajak keluar..kite dah rase macam dia nak kapel dgn kite..orang baru cakap i love u..kita dh rase yang dia tu bakal imam kite.
and bila perkara tu sekerap jalan..mula lah kite frust menonggeng pastu mula lah update status "broken heart" thingy..

thats why kite sebagai perempuan jangan cepat menggelabah and perasan..sungguh.
kite tak boleh salahkan lelaki..kadang2 diorang memang nakal and sesaje je..kadang2 diorang after text kite tu..terus letak handphone pastu pergi main snooker pastu hujung minggu bawak gf pergi jumpa mak pastu ajak kawen pastu kawen..

kite plak lepas je dapat msg "thanks teman saya makan td..will miss u"..terus balas " welcome..i miss u more and more"..pastu continue with "awak..kenapa x balas msg saya"...then continue with " awak cuba nak mainkan saya ea??, then continue with " menyesal saya kenal awak, then continue with " sampai ati awak buat macam ni kat saya, then continue with " pergi jahanam jantan tak guna!!"

lepas tu kite pon mengadu dekat kawan kite yg kite kena tinggal dengan lelaki tu and kawen ngn orang lain..pastu lelaki tu kena kutuk kaw2 dgn kawan kite and baru kite puas hati padahal ???
nampak tak kebodohan kite?

sebab itu..kite perlu cool dulu..tengok orang tu serious tak dengan kite baru kite bleh on dengan apa2 relationship ni..
yelah..zaman sekarang..ayat manis2 ni tak pakai dah..kadang2 dia forward dari mana2 je kat kite pastu mulalah kite merenung bulan malam2..

then last2..harapkan bulan.bulan tak jatuh2 keriba..

thanks for reading this..